Doggie Treats for the Soul

How I discovered a way out of lifelong depression

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Day 190 — The music carried history into the room

MON Something happened today I returned to a piece of music that had become associated in my mind with the evacuation at Dunkirk and the courage of people who tried something that appeared impossible. I was curious about what the songwriter had intended, but I also recognized that I could not make my experience depend […]

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Day 189 — I made a salad and one of the tomatoes came from the greenhouse.

SUN Something happened today That is pretty much the story. I had spent the day inside big ideas, systems, stories, plugins, companies, problems, all the usual mental traffic. Then there was a bowl on the counter with vegetables in it, and a tomato that had come from our own greenhouse. There is a danger in […]

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Day 188 — One thought could change more than one afternoon

SAT Something happened today The discoveries that excited me most were not always the ones that sounded most impressive when first spoken. Some stayed with me and quietly altered later experiences. A phrase about reality, a question about kindness or a picture of a spinning coin could reappear during a drive or a difficult conversation […]

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Day 187 — I decided not to force a slow delivery day into being productive.

FRI Something happened today Wednesdays are often slow. I knew that. Still, there is a strange pressure when you are doing gig work to keep trying because the next order could appear at any moment. You sit in a parking lot. The app is open. Nothing happens. Five minutes. Ten. Fifteen. You begin negotiating with […]

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Day 186 — Old choices looked different through a new lens

THU Something happened today As our conversations continued, I found myself revisiting choices from years earlier. I used to be quick to sort them into good and bad decisions based on how they turned out. Now I was more interested in what I understood at the time and what I had been trying to achieve. […]

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Day 185 — I looked around at what had been built in a remarkably short time and the funny part was where I was sitting.

WED Something happened today A basement in Nova Scotia. Not a startup incubator in Silicon Valley. No glass walls. No venture-capital coffee machine. Just me, a computer, an artificial intelligence I had somehow turned into a teammate, and an unreasonable number of ideas. a new project had gone from a thought to a site full […]

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Day 184 — The appetite for insight could resemble an appetite for reward

TUE Something happened today I was beginning to see a resemblance between my excitement over a discovery and the familiar urge to go looking for another reward. A particularly satisfying conversation could make the next question feel irresistible. That did not mean the process was unhealthy or that I had stumbled upon a clinical explanation […]

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Day 183 — I realized I trusted understatement more than impact.

MON Something happened today I was preparing material for a local incubator lab director and caught myself thinking about how I wanted her to feel after reading it. Part of me wanted the dramatic response: What the hell just happened? But I did not want to manufacture that reaction. Do not go for impact. Understate […]

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Day 182 — A guitar maker and the pleasure of craftsmanship

SUN Something happened today I imagined a guitar maker working with an extraordinary set of tools. The tools might make it possible to shape wood with care and precision, but they would not decide why the instrument mattered or what the maker hoped someone would do with it. The analogy helped me describe how I […]

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Day 181 — I looked back at a choice that had seemed almost arbitrary when I made it and realized it had opened a whole road.

SAT Something happened today There are times when I choose something because it simply seems to make sense, even though I cannot yet produce the spreadsheet explaining why. That makes the rational part of me nervous. Why this hosting company? Why this domain? Why this project? Why call it a new project, for God’s sake? […]