Doggie Treats for the Soul

How I discovered a way out of lifelong depression

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Day 130 — Giving myself permission to be imperfect

THU Something happened today I could have written specifications for all of it in advance. They would have been wrong. Not completely wrong. Planning has value. But a plan is a hypothesis about the future. A clue is evidence from the present. When the two disagree, I increasingly want to listen to the clue. This […]

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Day 129 — An insight might begin as a molecule

WED Something happened today A phrase appeared in our discussion that felt significant without yet fitting into a larger explanation. I compared it to finding a molecule of something. It was a modest image, and that was precisely why I liked it. I didn’t need to announce a great revelation every time I noticed a […]

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Day 128 — I found a sentence that took some pressure off me.

TUE Something happened today The clues will always be a better guide than I could ever be. I liked it because it demoted me. In a good way. I do not have to be the brilliant planner who knows what everything means. I do not have to decide the destination and then force every piece […]

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Day 127 — Brainstorming became a way of discovering

MON Something happened today This became one of the most important things I learned about working with AI too. If every raw thought is immediately corrected, fact-checked, polished and turned into a conclusion, the conversation becomes efficient and dead. Efficiency is not always the goal. Sometimes you want to wander around the room touching things. […]

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Day 126 — I found a better way to describe brainstorming.

SUN Something happened today The objective is discovery. Always discovery. Not correction. Not refinement. Not making the first thought presentable. Discovery first. I pictured a bucket at the top of a slide. The job is to fill the bucket the best you can and then turn it over. Once the water is on the slide, […]

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Day 125 — Why some rewards become hard to stop chasing

SAT Something happened today I began looking back at activities that had kept me absorbed far longer than I intended. Sometimes I had stayed up late playing a game because the next small success was always just around the corner. The pleasure of discovering something new could produce a similar feeling, although its consequences were […]

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Day 124 — The laugh that told me something was wrong

FRI Something happened today And funny. Because sometimes reality piles so many layers on top of one another that understatement becomes the only honest response. That is the truth laugh. It does not say the pain is unreal. It says the absurdity is real too. I like that because we often describe laughter as escape. […]

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Day 122 — The coin was turning faster than my categories

WED Something happened today As I stayed with the spinning coin, I recognized how quickly my mind wanted to settle on a label. Was a particular response fear or anger, love or frustration, selfishness or generosity? Often the honest answer was more complicated than the choice I had offered myself. The spinning coin became more […]